Lonely vs. Alone

It used to be that I would feel lonely around the Hallmark days, but never alone. Lately, however, it has been just the opposite. You see, I have a back-up. The problem, though, is that I keep him at the top of my list, whereas he is saving me for the final cut. And so, here I am, moping on the most carded holiday of the year. But let's leave his story for another rainy day.

Back to the query: What's worse.........feeling lonely or alone?

Previously, loneliness seeped in and out of my life, but I knew I had someone on reserve, so I tried to not let it get to me. Plus, I had plenty of more or less single friends. We were a tight knit bunch, united in our affinity for the uncommitted life. We still are, though a few recent developments have threatened to rip open our circle. Which brings me to........

Why Blog: Reason #3 (Friendsunk)

Like I said, my gals and I are very close. We all met as Freshmen while living in the same dorm complex and our bonds flourished with each periodic gathering in the later terms. Boyfriends came and went but no trouble was felt because none of them stuck around long enough to be welcomed or accepted. Now, though, one of our friends has nabbed a welcomed, potential suitor. Don't get me wrong. We're happy for her. This is what we've wanted for each other. I just didn't think C would leave me so quickly.

At first, I thought it was envy I felt, since said suitor was a potential for most of us and plus I assumed C's time was still distant. However, I eventually came to realize that it was actually sadness that was gnawing at me (quite literally). I play the supportive friend, but each time she relays her new stories, I feel an invisible pair of forceps pinching me. [On a side note: This must be how R feels whenever he sees his newly engaged ex.] Thus, I turn to blogger-space to mark this end of an era and leap forth onto a new ship to sail beyong C & E.

Oops, I just noticed the question went un-answered. But it's late and all of the lovebirds have flown, so I'll leave the answer up to you readers.

Why Blog: Reason #2 (New Readership)

I'm tired of conversing with myself. Not that I don't have anyone else to talk to. It's just, there are certain subjects that are restricted to certain groups. I mean, I have really close friends and relatives that I hang out and chat with, but they are not open to all types of discussion, at least not from me. I don't have a bff with whom I can talk to about anything and everything.....unless you count moi.

I know it sounds pathetic, but believe me, I've tried expanding my topics with the usual suspects, but it's useless. Frankly, I'm tired of hearing "I wasn't paying attention," or "I didn't hear/understand a word you said." Sometimes, it's easier and more fun to engage in a heated debate with a stranger or new acquaintance. I enjoy reading other people's personal blogs, so there's bound to be an audience out there who will read mine. ;)

Welcome to My Blob

Why start a blog you ask (well you didn't, but let's just say you did or were thinking about it)?

Reason #1: Struck in Blog Land

For the past 2 years or so, I have been increasingly sucked into Blogger-space, mostly as an aimless wanderer. I followed many arrows and urls, rounding many corners, but always kept a low profile. Mind you, I was initially skeptical about this blogging phenom. Why would someone want to keep a live journal for anyone to stumble upon? Isn't that why diaries tend to come with locks? However, having been introduced to foodie sites and frequently scooping out countless tv/movie commentaries, I now feel compelled to leave a more permanent mark in Blog Land. After all, once in a while, I'd like to throw out a piece of my mind......just don't want to be standing there when they hurl it back at me.')

In fact, I liked food blogs so much, I considered starting one of my own. But then I actually thought about it, and decided I'd rather have a place to give my 4 cents. Hence, welcome to my blob! Enjoy the ride.